SIMILAR PROJECT:

Meeting in the aisle (2020)
watercolour, oil pastels, acrylic on A3 paper

Fossil of a room (2020) oil on A3 paper (digitally edited)

In the rafters (2021) acrylic on A3 paper

origin (edited diary passage):
"... I cowered under the parasol as she leaned towards me, with her large dog on a small sofa under the sun. (covid time and my first voice training session, so we sat far apart in her alley-like front yard)

The therapist moved in a very exaggerated way; Every movement she made dazzled the blinding sunlight into my eyes, and with my vision impaired, it seemed as if the front yard had started to grow in length, and while somehow maintaining their inescapable clarity the two zoomed further and further away from me.

I had recently gained an irrational fear that I was being turned into a rock in a slow, unnoticeable, but sure manner, and this sight made me believe that the process had sped up. I must leave right now, I thought! But I remained motionless and smiled contortedly, very occasionally I had moved minimally in a jagged way. She must be used to this, so I let my self be, shouting childish words repeatedly louder and louder as she instructed.

Right then and there I had finally turned into a stone sculpture completely. How ironic of me to come here with a coy hope of finally escaping my fate, when right now the end of me is looking at me in the face. I looked at the dog as she tried to approach me relentlessly, and the equally relentless lady pulled the leash back again and again. What exactly do they see right now? But all I could imagine was the blank stone sculpture. Its smell of mould made me dizzy;
I might really have been the dog all along, what a callous experiment, I thought.

Afterwards, I quietly walked back to my friend's house (where I was living) though really, I wanted to sprint on all fours. It was still only early afternoon, there was no one around in the wheat fields but it was nevertheless too lively."

(*teenage me was reading books about schizophrenia and made myself believe that I was schizoid)

Happening (2020) digital drawing on photo

Window (2020) oil on A3 paper

sketches made on the same day (2020)
digital paintings

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